When Things Getting Tougher

My downs during Generasi Gigih Intermediate Phase

It has been four weeks since I started the Generasi Gigih Intermediate phase and now, it is getting tougher and tougher. To be honest I was really struggling to pass this week. A lot of things happened during this week and it distracted me a lot. I had to travel from Surabaya to Jakarta in the middle of the week because of an important matter that I need to do. I also was notified that my uncle is positive Covid-19. Furthermore, I found some problems with my Kampus Merdeka application.

Those things happened in the week which had a very technical material, Python. Of course, that distracted me a lot and sometimes it was difficult for me to maintain my focus in the class. As a result, I got confused with some of the materials and I thought I really fell behind. I was not really engaged in the class discussions and processing the material really slowly. This was not what I thought how my fourth week would be going. It was definitely the opposite of it.

At the beginning of the week, we received Experience Board from the committee that shows our score and ranking in Generasi Gigih Program. I ranked 40 among 102 students in the Data Analyst path. The result was quite disappointing for me. It was not like what I expected. I know that I started this program slow and was not really active in the beginning but I think I have started to be more involved and active during the discussion.

After knowing my position among my peers, I determined to be more active in class and boost my scores since I know that I won’t pass to the next phase if I am still stuck in this position for the rest of the program. This week was supposed to be a redemption week to be more active in the class. Especially when I thought that I will learn about data visualization, one of my favorite modules to learn in this program.

But It turned out that the module changed and in the fourth week, we learned about Python. At first, I was shocked because I have prepared this week by reading some articles about data visualization, not Python. So yeah, I got overwhelmed at first. This lesson was very technical and we do some hands-on practice.

But I think it was too fast for me (T_T)

I can’t keep up with the class. Getting worse, news and things came up to me in the middle of the week and my focus was really distracted. I was struggling to pass this week and my plan to do a redemption during this week was totally failed. It was hard for me to catch up with the discussion and getting more involved in class especially after what happened to me this week.

By the end of the week, I felt really frustrated and sad because I thought I have missed my opportunity to pass the next selection. During the homework schedule, I was lost. There are some materials that I do not really understand and it was hard for me to find the solution to my homework. Moreover, the recording is not uploaded yet so that I can’t directly review the previous lesson.

Then, I tried to ask some classmates about it. I am really grateful that they are open to discussion and willing to teach me about things that I do not really understand. Even though they made it to the top leaderboard, they are still very humble.

At that time, I realized that I still have time to give my best in this program and the gate to the next phase is not closed yet. I still have 2 weeks in this program and I want to maximize it. I can learn not only from my mentors but also from my classmates.

I hope that I can make it to the final phase but what I really want to do is to give my best during this program because I don’t want to regret anything after the program. No matter what the result will be, if I have given my best effort to it, eventually I will not regret it. I will get a lot of things from the program and would be valuable assets for me. Not only things that I learned from my classes, but also about how the competition is going within this industry. By keeping that in mind I will pursue more and give my best during the class. I will adsorb as many as I could not only from my mentors but also from my peers.

— For my peers who made it to the top of the boards

Congratulation Guys! You are truly awesome! I recognize you from the class since you are all really active from the very beginning. I learned a lot from you since you have brought insightful discussion during the class and some of you even answered others' questions in the chatbox. It made the class really engaging and full of discussion. It is really inspiring also when some of you are really humble to teach me outside the class. I do really hope that one day I can be like you, and made it to the top of the boards. I definitely will adsorb as much as I could from you guys! Keep Inspiring!

— For my peers who are still struggling to keep up for the class

I feel you guys! I know it’s been hard for us to keep up the lesson but let’s keep moving forward! Don’t give up when things getting harder and seem impossible to achieve. Let’s focus on something that we can really control and try to evaluate ourselves. Let’s put our best effort into this program so that we won’t regret it in the future. I believe the door is not closed for us and we still have opportunities to catch up to others and make the best outcomes from this program. Keep your spirit up, guys!

“It’s getting tougher because you’re getting closer to your breakthrough and the things you’ve been praying for. When things get tough, you must toughen up” — Jeanette Coron